Eid in Macquarie



This year is my forth year celebrating Eid away from home... and the first time celebrating it with new friends in a new place. So far, Alhamdulillah, I am very happy and grateful to be given the opportunity to be here. We had our Eid prayer at the MQU musolla. It was so nice to see other Malaysians as well as friends from other countries celebrate Eid there too. After the prayer, we decided to join Kak Ila and her family visit one of the mosques here in Sydney. I have never been to a mosque in Sydney before so that was nice. She took us to the one in Auburn...but we arrived a bit late so no one was there. After that, her children wanted to get something from McD so we went to the drive-thru (it's the only halal McD in Sydney I think). Then, we decided to go raya at Kak Ila's house- so nice to eat homemade raya food! :) So, that's basically what I did on my first day of Eid...I had class the next day and also the whole day on Saturday so no more celebrations. 

Anyway, I was talking to a good friend of mine (from high school) yesterday about how I feel "left behind" and sometimes I feel like I don't ever want to go back to my homeland because the pressure is too big. My best friends from high school are all tying the knot by the end of this year (and most of it I will not be able to attend), and I am the only one left who is still single. 

Yes, I am seeing someone right now and yes he we do plan to get married but until that happens, I try not get my expectations too high. I have no way of telling the future; I do pray for the best, and I do pray that things go as planned, but until then, I just don't want to be too confident about it. I've been through enough in the past to know that. 

But then my good friend reminded me that I am blessed in so many other ways that I should not feel that way. I may not have what most of my other friends have right now, but Allah gave me the rezeki to study overseas, twice. He gave me a good family. He gave me a nephew. He gave me good friends. I have a roof over my head, a comfortable bed to sleep on every night and enough food to keep me alive and healthy. Masha Allah I don't think I even deserve to get all His blessings. 

I have to stop comparing myself to others. Yes I may not have what they have, but I have other things that I should be grateful for, everyday.

As for jodoh, it'll come when it comes, InshaaAllah.


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