Unpacking Life -

Updates updates! Nope. The baby's not out yet. Hopefully Baby Y will come soon... Excited and anxious at the same time. Had a false alarm a few days before CNY, went to see the Doctor and I was 1cm dilated...the contractions stopped the next day... I've been walking a lot, squatting a lot, eating Kurma, drinking pure watermelon juice, air kelapa, spicy food, and everything we can think of, but so far still nothing.  Oh well when the baby is not ready then he is not ready. Maybe the baby's too comfortable...maybe I made the baby's home too comfortable.  We're praying and hoping for a safe natural birthing experience. No epidural, no IV, no unecessary VE, DCC, breastfeed ASAP... these are our birth preferences. But we are also aware that it all depends on Allah's will. So, I'm just going to stay positive, practice my breathing, and pray... I'm going to just let go, and let God. Oh, tomorrow I'll be 39 weeks pregnant. Love you

Today did not start well Probably one of the worst days I've had since I've been pregnant 1. Both of my hands are in pain. I couldn't sleep last night and had to wake up AJ to massage my hands. I feel really bad because he hasn't been getting enough rest lately due to moving houses/coming home late/me waking him up in the middle of the night. Honestly, if I was not in so much pain, I would have just sleep through it and let him sleep. But my fingers felt like someone was chopping them off... 2. The water retention is getting worse. I have pictures to prove it. I've tried soaking it in Epsom salt, putting pillows underneath my feet when I sleep etc etc. But they just keep getting bigger and bigger. I wanted to get new sandals but none of them could fit me (not joking). 3. Because of the carpal tunnel syndrome, it's getting harder to do anything using my hands. Even eating is a hassle. I cannot eat with my hands anymore. I cannot wear my usua