Unpacking Life -

I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes Don't always say, what's on my mind You know that I've been hurt, by some guy But I don't wanna mess up this time [BRIDGE] And I really really really care And I really really really want you And I think I'm kinda scared Cos I don't want to lose you If you really really really care Then maybe you can hang through I hope you understand It's nothing to you [CHORUS] My heart's at a low I'm so much to manage I think you should know that I've been damaged I'm falling in love There's one disadvantage I think you should know that I've been damaged I might look through your stuff, for what I don't wanna find Or I might just set you up, to see if you're all mine I'm a little paranoid, from what I've been through Don't know what you got yourself into And I really really really care (And I care about you so much) And...

First of all, Alhamdulillah...for all the blessings that He has given me. I am very thankful for everything... Thank you Allah. Second of all. I think he just made US official last night. As of last night, we made a promise to commit to each other. InShaaAllah if everything goes well we plan to tie the knot next year. Do pray for us. I still can't stop smiling...  Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku...permudahkanlah urusan jodohku :) Amin.

Tonight is my last night sleeping at home, in my room, on my bed. Starting from tomorrow, I'll be going to a new place, starting a "new" life, and hopefully it will be a good experience. I look forward to go especially because Jo is coming with me. It is definitely less scary when you have someone with you :) I'm definitely going to miss: 1. A . I know we've only known each other for only about two months...but I love having him in my life. It's not complicated at all... I enjoy texting him all day... I know I may be reading too much into what this really is...but so far, yes, I am happy. I have no idea how he feels or what is on his mind... and frankly speaking, I am very scared to know, and I probably don't want to know. What we have now is already good...so I'd like to stay this way for now. I can just pray that this will lead to something even more beautiful. If not, well, at least I haven't told him how I feel... (I don't know why and ...

The past week has been a very interesting one. Of all the 26 years that I have been living in this world, I have never experienced so many things in just one week. Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly and yesterday I finally received a confirmation on my student visa! I hope things will continue to go smoothly, InsyaAllah. It all changed on the 5th February when I received that call from Jo...We had to do everything quickly because we were running out of time... I am very grateful to have her, because if not, I think I would have already given up on this. Anyway, my focus today is not really about Australia...or Masters...it's about him. I think from now on I have to give him a name...okay lets call him A. (ha ha not very creative I know). I think I've mentioned him in  all 4 of my previous posts... So. We finally met the other day. I was in KL for my medical checkup and I went to hang around at Ayah's office after everything was settled. His offi...

There are so many times that my hand just wants to reach the phone and text you... It's already 1 pm in the afternoon and I find myself waiting for you, for your text. I want to text you, but then I don't want to get frustrated if you don't reply to it. It's not like there is anything between us, or if there will ever be anything between us. Why do I find myself thinking of you? Why do I find myself missing you?  At 26, I don't think I want to go through all the drama of being in a relationship...I have had enough of that since I was 18, and I'm still single. What I want now is, a simple guy, who can love me for who I am... it's okay if we are not crazy in love at the start, because I believe that love will come later if you learn to accept the person for who the person is.  Anyway, what I am trying to say is, I think you are a great person, and I enjoy our endless texting for the past month, and I wonder, if you think something great can happe...

I think I am mostly done filling up the forms...I just need to matikan setem etc... which I will probably ask for my father's help for all that.  I hate filling up forms...always have always will. When I received my offer to do my undergraduate degree back in 2008, it was my father who filled up all those forms. I didn't do much except being excited about going to a new place.  But at 26, of course my father will no longer do that for me. So like it or not, I had to do it. He had to remind me everyday to fill up those forms and I finally did... it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I have one more day to settle all my school work, so that I don't burden the people I leave behind. I hope everything will go smoothly until my departure date, and hopefully when I'm there too. The less drama, the better.  Anyway, one of the things that keep playing in my mind is whether or not anything could ever happen between him and I. I like the way things are n...

It has become a habit of mine to start a new blog whenever I feel stressed out with things that are happening around me. And this one, like many others that I have started, probably won't last that long too. I just have this itch to write how I'm feeling when I feel like nobody understands what I'm going through...(most of the time, it's just me being mengada ...but everyone has their mengada moments sometimes)  Why am I stressed? Well because...a few days ago, I received a huge news. News that's going to change my life in a very significant way. Let me start from the start so that no one is confused (haha it's not like anyone is reading anyway).  Last year, back in October, I decided to apply for Masters in Australia. Part of the reason was because I was tired of the things that was happening around school, and I was missing my life as a student so terribly. My status working there was still contract, and I could actually leave if I wanted to. But the...