Unpacking Life -

Aidilfitri 2010 with Mara 1, our last Raya together in Wellington.  Not sure whether it is because of Ramadhan or because I'm getting older (wiser? hihi), but I am more patient these days. Alhamdulillah.  Anyway, would like to take this opportunity to wish those who are celebrating: Selamat hari raya aidilfitri! Maaf zahir dan batin!   Drive safe, stay safe, enjoy the food and time with loved ones! I'm hoping that this will be my last time celebrating away from home (and if I have to again, I hope I atleast have a husband by my side with me). InshaaAllah next year, I'd like to be around my family too- it's been too long since we last had a proper raya with everyone in the same place. I'm hoping too, InshaaAllah, that this is my last Ramadhan and Raya as a single woman. I don't know the future and I have no way of seeing/predicting how my future will go, but I hope it will go as planned. Amin. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku, Amin. ...

So here I am, back in Sydney again. I'm supposed to start choosing the courses I want to take next semester but I'm just too lazy to do it now- still in my holiday mode... I guess it's alright and I think I have plenty of time to settle that, the  final date to enrol is on the 29th July. One month of break! Yay. Life is good. Alhamdulillah. Athera is coming tomorrow so will have to wake up early and go pick her up.  ........ Haha I actually wrote the above last night but then I got bored and just went to sleep. I'm in the train right now, on my way to pick up thera at the airport... Goodness the return train tix to the airport is so expensive! Lol. But it's alright... It's not everyday that friends come to visit me here in the land down under! :) Anyway, I can't wait for tonight... Jo and I are taking thera to see Phedre at the Sydney opera house! This will be my first time too so I'm quite excited! :)  Not really sure what w...

It's been almost a week since I moved to this new place. So far I'm not sure how I really feel about MQU... or even Australia. I can't help but comparing it to Wellington even though I know I shouldn't. Things are different here. I find the people are less friendly than NZ and things are more expensive too. In terms of study, it is definitely a lot tougher here. I guess I have to be strong and just do it. InsyaAllah Allah will ease my journey... It's only for one year... It'll be over before I know it.

Assalamualaikum. So... It's been a while since I last wrote anything. The last post was actually written on my last day in Malaysia but I did not publish it then because it wasn't done...but when I continued writing it two nights ago, I realised I was bored of listing out the things I'll miss (because it's going to be an endless list!) but decided to publish whatever I have written anyway. Seeing that Zaty is actually reading my blog, I've decided to write another post, to update her (heheh). First of all, it has been a very (thinking of the right words to include here...) interesting, adventurous, a little bit confusing and scary week for me. Two weeks ago, I kind of made the decision to just drop everything and move to a different country and do my masters (yes, exactly two weeks). Well, I actually applied for this whole thing since last year, it just took a while for my sponsor to approve it (wait, I think I already wrote about this in my first post, so ...

The past week has been a very interesting one. Of all the 26 years that I have been living in this world, I have never experienced so many things in just one week. Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly and yesterday I finally received a confirmation on my student visa! I hope things will continue to go smoothly, InsyaAllah. It all changed on the 5th February when I received that call from Jo...We had to do everything quickly because we were running out of time... I am very grateful to have her, because if not, I think I would have already given up on this. Anyway, my focus today is not really about Australia...or Masters...it's about him. I think from now on I have to give him a name...okay lets call him A. (ha ha not very creative I know). I think I've mentioned him in  all 4 of my previous posts... So. We finally met the other day. I was in KL for my medical checkup and I went to hang around at Ayah's office after everything was settled. His offi...

Everything feels so surreal... Just like in the movies. I was suddenly reminded of Lagenda Budak Setan, the scene where the girl suddenly broke the news that she was going to New Zealand the next day... (Can't remember whether to work or study)...but the way she said it, was as if it was THAT easy to move to another country! Well, now I kind of wish it was that easy... Just pack my bags and make sure my tickets are ready and just go. Simple. No hassle at all. But it's not! It's far from simple... I don't know how I am going to leave and tell everyone the news tomorrow. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku untuk sambung belajar...

I think I am mostly done filling up the forms...I just need to matikan setem etc... which I will probably ask for my father's help for all that.  I hate filling up forms...always have always will. When I received my offer to do my undergraduate degree back in 2008, it was my father who filled up all those forms. I didn't do much except being excited about going to a new place.  But at 26, of course my father will no longer do that for me. So like it or not, I had to do it. He had to remind me everyday to fill up those forms and I finally did... it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I have one more day to settle all my school work, so that I don't burden the people I leave behind. I hope everything will go smoothly until my departure date, and hopefully when I'm there too. The less drama, the better.  Anyway, one of the things that keep playing in my mind is whether or not anything could ever happen between him and I. I like the way things are n...

It has become a habit of mine to start a new blog whenever I feel stressed out with things that are happening around me. And this one, like many others that I have started, probably won't last that long too. I just have this itch to write how I'm feeling when I feel like nobody understands what I'm going through...(most of the time, it's just me being mengada ...but everyone has their mengada moments sometimes)  Why am I stressed? Well because...a few days ago, I received a huge news. News that's going to change my life in a very significant way. Let me start from the start so that no one is confused (haha it's not like anyone is reading anyway).  Last year, back in October, I decided to apply for Masters in Australia. Part of the reason was because I was tired of the things that was happening around school, and I was missing my life as a student so terribly. My status working there was still contract, and I could actually leave if I wanted to. But the...