Unpacking Life -

I know this is probably a little bit basi already but I'm going to write about it anyway.  I got engaged last week. Alhamdulillah. We planned it since December, when he was in Sydney. We've been talking about getting married for a while now, but we both agreed to wait until I finish my Masters. So as soon as I did, he asked my parents' permission to marry me. It was quite brave of him to be honest, because he asked the question in front of Jo and my adik too. I was the only one who knew what was coming (although I didn't know how it was going to go or how he was going to do it/ask it).  We were just done having breakfast, A and I were going to send the car back. He texted me asking if I was ready and I told him yes. But when I looked at him he didn't move. He just sat there and he smiled at me. I asked him if he wanted to talk to my parents and he said yes. So the first few minutes were kind of awkward...we were just sitting around in a cir...

Sometimes I laugh a bit too loud and I'm not afraid to act silly in public. I don't feel the need to be/act proper all the time. That's just the way I am. I like the way I am. I like to smile a lot. I talk a lot. I'm not embarrassed to upload silly photos of me on social networking sites. I don't really care if people think I'm childish/immature. I can be mature when I need to be. I know when to act proper. I know when to be silly. I don't feel the need to be stick thin. So what if I'm not thin? I love my curves.  So please don't tell me to be someone I'm not. Stop asking me to lose weight. Please just accept me the way I am.

Today's definitely not a good day for me. I don't know how it happened but I hit a car when I was reversing my car. I honestly did not see that the car was behind me...and there was a lorry parked next to my car blocking my view. Thank God my wedding planner, Kak Shida and her husband was there and they helped me sort everything out (I was actually delivering the stuff for the hantaran and was ready to go home). I don't know what I would do if they were not there...   I'm sure there is a hikmah to all this.   Alhamdulillah I'm ok and my car is ok.   This is my first accident since I got my license almost 10 years ago.       

Six days to go and I'm down with a fever. I've been spending the whole day in bed, sleeping most of the time. There are still a few things that I need to buy so hopefully I feel a bit better tomorrow and get some things done.  Hopefully everything will go smoothly. I feel like my head is going to explode :(

I think you broke me. I don't think I can go back to being the me that you used to know. Because when I was that person, you don't seem to notice. She once told me that for someone who I claim to love a lot, you sure made me cry a lot.  The past couple of days made me think about the past year that we've been together. Although I remember laughing and smiling, I also remember crying, being stressed, confused, and hurt. I remember not being able to sleep until 3 in the morning. Lucky she was there to comfort me.  I know that in order to be happy, I need to let go and move on. But then I think again, is this all worth it? Or am I just being stupid?

I finally met my his family yesterday and Alhamdulillah everything went well. I think. Haha. He has a wonderful family and they made me feel really comfortable. I was really nervous at first (I think that's expected) but the moment I stepped out of the car and his father gave me a friendly smile, my nervousness went away. We had a wonderful lunch together (I'm still thinking about the gulai tempoyak ikan patin) and spent the rest of the time watching Law and Order.  He sent me back at the airport at 6 and here I am...at home. If everything goes well, InshaaAllah will be seeing him again in two weeks.  Have a good weekend!

I'm meeting his family in two days and I have absolutely no idea about what I am going to wear.  I need to go shopping A.S.A.P I hope I won't embarrass him 

Mum said I should stop smiling because it creates lines underneath my lips/chin which makes me less beautiful/perfect. The lines are going to be permanent she said. "Tak cantik" LolWhat? I love my mum but sometimes she drives me crazy... there is always something that I do that is not up to her standards. I will never be good enough in her eyes. Oh well. Nana told me not to listen to her and just keep smiling. I think I will.

It will be one year tomorrow. Only one year? LOL. Hopefully there will be many more years to come,  InshaaAllah, Amin.  I'm excited about all the plans we've made. 2 weeks from now. 4 months from now. and InshaaAllah, the rest of our lives =) I'm so glad I took the risk of adding you on Facebook exactly a year ago. Who knew it would go this way, eh? To be honest, I did not expect this at all a year ago. It was a random decision that I made because I was angry at the person who introduced us (long story, maybe some other time). You turned out to be a nice and decent person and we became friends to more than friends. Of course things are not always good but hopefully no matter what, we'll get through all the challenges and obstacles together.  Allah is definitely the best planner =) 

Your definition of what 'simple' is is not simple at all to me. Wait, shouldn't this be our day?

21 days to go :)

Dad says this, Mom says that. I'm stuck in the middle.

Despite our differences, I am grateful that we can still talk and try to find solutions to our problems/disagreements.