Unpacking Life -

It's going to be 2014 soon, so I decided to hide all my past posts except for one... the first post I wrote when I started this blog earlier this year. Lately I feel like I've been exposing my personal life too much. It's my own fault really...I wanted to make this blog as anonymous as possible at first, but as time went by, I forgot?  Anyway,  Happy New Year 2014 :) May all your wishes come true, Amin.

I am finally home!  December of 2013 is by far the best month ever! It started with my family and him coming down to Sydney and then we did a bit of travelling to Canberra and Melbourne. Then I received the news that I can graduate. Then my best friend got married and I was the maid of honor as well as the pengapit. I also got to see my best friend Zaty before she flies off to London to pursue her Masters. Oh and I got to know her awesome friends too when I tagged along to a Christmas dinner at her friend's place :) ...and I have a feeling that something that's happening in January is going to be even more awesome :) Allahumma yassir wala tu'assir.  Thank you Allah. 

In two days, I'll be going home for good and I am actually feeling quite sad. It's quite funny because when I came here 10 months ago, I did not like this place at all. It's expensive, it's hard to get around, and I kept comparing it with Wellington and how I wished I was in Wellington instead of Sydney. But slowly, I grew to like living here but now I have to come home. Oh well, that's life I guess. Maybe in the future ada rezeki I get to go somewhere else? InshaaAllah.  I'm so not looking forward to go back to work haha. Can I just be a student forever please?

" I chose to stay with him for all the things he's done right; not the one thing he's done wrong. I chose to forgive him " - The Vow (2012) “When you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change your feelings because it’s the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares" - The Vow (2012) "You either want to marry me or you don't" - He's just not that into you (2009) "I adore you" "I don't want to be adored, I want to be loved" - If only (2004) "I came here tonight because when you realise you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible" - When Harry met Sally (1989) "Would you wait around to find out if it's just a necklace, or if it's sex and a necklace, or if, worst of all, it's a necklace and love? Would you stay, knowing life would always be a little bit worse? Or would you cut and run?...

This is the longest we've gone without contacting each other. Three longest days of my life! I was so glad to finally get your text just now and to know that you are fine and happy :) I can't wait to see you tomorrow morning at the station. One more day with you before you head back :) The next time will be when I come home next week I guess. I hope everything goes smoothly. I hope our plans will come true. InshaaAllah. <3

"He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you." -Bob Marley

Today's the day of my results... and Alhamdulillah, I did well. In fact, better than last semester (3 Distinctions and 1 Credit compared to 2 Distinctions and 2 Credits for last semester). My overall GPA is 3.63. I am so grateful to Allah, for without Him I don't think I will ever make it this far. Honestly, my final semester was very tough and challenging. There were times I felt like I would not make it...  A lot happened during my final semester so it is a miracle that I made it through fine =) The first semester was tough too, but it was mostly because I was still adjusting to the new environment and to postgraduate life. I thought that the second one would be a breeze, boy was I wrong! But whatever it is, I am so relieved that it's over! I can graduate! Yay.  Thank you Mak, Ayah, Ayong, Abang, Kak Sha, Nana & Aidan for your endless love and support. Thank you AJ for putting up with my bad moods, for believing in me, and for always motivating me to go on. ...

Everyone! The past week has been amazing- having my parents here, my lovely little sister, and ofcourse, my AJ. I wish it didn't have to end. Why is it that when you are having a good time, time just seems to move so quickly?  The morning he arrived =) There are just so many things I want to write about that I don't even know where to begin. A lot of things happened this past week, both good and bad, but Alhamdulillah, everything is OK. I learned a lot of valuable lessons about myself and about him too. His visit here is actually good for us, we learned so much about each other during the two weeks than we did the whole year. Prior to this, we've only met four times and they were really short meetings. This time, he was here for a full 2 weeks. I think I understand him a bit more now, and hopefully this will make us stronger. (The three of us in the ferry. We all joked about how AJ looks like a 16 year-old and that he is actually Nana'...