Unpacking Life -

I was so bored today that I decided to browse through friends' Instagram photos and realised how far left behind I am compared to them. Most of them already have stable jobs, are either engaged or already married, already have kids or are pregnant with their first child.  What do I have? What have I achieved so far?  I'm turning 26 this year.  No job, no husband, no kids. and I still live like I'm 21.  I can't help but feel envious of them when I look at their wedding/baby photos and how happy they look.  I have to admit, it does get lonely sometimes. I'm tired of doing everything alone. I want someone cuddle and talk to at night, to wake up to in the morning, to love, to spoil, to argue with, get annoyed with, to cook for, to look after, to cry to, and basically to spend the rest of my life with.  I really hope our plan to get married next June comes true. I know he is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with and ...

I decided to privatize my blog for a while... because you see...I don't write well when I know people are reading it. I just get so pressured that I end up not writing at all, hence, the lack of new posts on my blog. I tend to be careful of what I write when I know someone's reading it, especially when the post is about that particular person. Maybe I should change my blog link?  I prefer writing "anonymously" because I can write what I want without having to worry about what people think. I put the "quotation marks" on anonymous because it's not really anonymous...if you are observant enough, you'll definitely know it's me.  Anyway, today's the 4th day of Ramadhan? Alhamdulillah, so far I have been able to fast and perform my terawih prayers every night. InshaAllah I will try to keep this up and may this Ramadhan be better than last year for me. Amin.  My first semester results came out yesterday, and Alhamdulillah I thin...

First of all, Alhamdulillah...for all the blessings that He has given me. I am very thankful for everything... Thank you Allah. Second of all. I think he just made US official last night. As of last night, we made a promise to commit to each other. InShaaAllah if everything goes well we plan to tie the knot next year. Do pray for us. I still can't stop smiling...  Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku...permudahkanlah urusan jodohku :) Amin.

I sort of asked him if he has found the one he wants to spend his life with. At first he didn't want to answer. But I made him answer anyway. Then he said yes... and continued telling me about the girl that he wants to maybe marry one day. I smiled. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan jodohku. Amin.