Unpacking Life -

I'm turning 26 soon. God I feel old. I don't know why I'm extra nervous about turning a year older this year. 21 - First birthday away from home in another country. I can't remember what I did.  22 - My ex threw me a surprise birthday party (my first surprise birthday party ever!). He planned it with my close friends but I sort of found out about it an hour before the surprise, LOL. He said it was really hard planning a surprise birthday party for me because we were always together and he had to wait until I had classes to go out and buy stuff for the party...haha. 23 - I decided to have a small celebration with just my closest friends. We had dinner at Nandos. They got me The Sims 3 expansion pack! :)  24 - My colleagues took me for a birthday lunch. One of my colleagues, Cikgu Zul, dropped my friend and I at the restaurant and said that he wanted to park his car. We waited for him for half an hour and when he came back, he brought a cake with him! 25 - I d...

It's the chasing that I miss. When we were first starting to get to know each other, you were always available. You were the one who always made the effort to text me. It didn't matter if you were with friends etc, you still made sure that you were there. now? Barely. I guess it's probably because you feel so secure, you know I will not go anywhere. Makes me kind of sad you know? Can we turn back time?

I actually don't think that you deserve to be written about in this blog. But since I am angry right now, and I need an outlet to channel my negative energy, here goes. Firstly, I honestly think you are one manipulative b***ch. You pretend to be so helpless and clueless so that you can take advantage of people. We sensed that about you since the first time we met you. That's why we stopped helping you. If we knew you would do this to us, we would never have considered you when we were house-hunting. The only reason we agreed to let you live with us was because we thought it wasn't nice to leave you on your own (since it was your first time being away from home etc.). We even let you have YOUR OWN ROOM while we had to share a room (and still divided the rent the same between us!). You did not help at all with the house-hunting, "because you don't know what to do bla bla". When you moved in, you pretended to be so helpless and expect people to carry your ba...

"You have this idea in your head about what and how it's going to be like when you finally meet this person you want to be with. But when things do not happen the way you imagine it, you start to think that he doesn't love you and you start to feel insecure. You should not feel that way!" "Do not expect too much, and do not expect to get back whatever you give. But then again do not settle!" "If you have something to say to him, just say it! It doesn't matter if he gets angry" "If you feel like something is wrong, tell him! You'll save a lot of time!" "You're the type of person who when you love, you really love. You have to learn to be cool" -This is from my 17-year old sister when I asked her if she thinks Amir loves me. 

Happy Monday everyone! It's already week 7 and I am still very clueless about my courses LOL. Oh well, hopefully it will be okay in the end. Another 7 weeks to go and then I'll be done. I have already submitted the form to apply for my flight ticket to go back in December! A lot of exciting things to look forward to before I go back. My parents and little sister are coming here in December, InshaaAllah! We're planning to go on a road trip to Melbourne...and guess what else? He will be joining us too! Yay! Allahumma yassir wala tu'assir. Rabbi tammin bil khoir. Amin!

What I don't know can't hurt me Should not hurt me But why then Do I keep having this uneasy feeling inside my heart Why do I keep wondering Who you're talking to late at night When it's not me? Yep. I think too much.